Baby Showers

Baby showers are really hard for me. 

We just had a baby shower for a girl here at work, and while I am happy for her, I just can't help but wonder when is it going to be my turn.  I just sit there and watch them open up the gifts and hold back my tears. 

I am getting ready to plan a shower for my cousin who is about to have her second child.  I am excited and I want to do it, but I would rather be planning mine.  I know that it sounds very selfish and mean of me, but if you were in my shoes, you would understand.  I am very happy for her and can't wait to meet baby Jaelyn, but I also want to meet my children. 

Until next time...

Shawna