Friday, May 18, 2012

Baby D

Well, things are going really good so far.  I am now 10 weeks and 2 days!!!  We got to see Baby D for the first time on May 9th....and it was absolutely amazing.  The heartbeat was 174!!  We saw the little heart beating and saw him/her move their feet!!  We got to have our ultrasound recorded and will have the rest of them recorded as well.  I have only gained 1.6 pounds....but I already have a nice pooch on me. (pics to come)  I see my actual doctor for the first time next Tuesday, May 22, 2012.  I am excited but nervous.  Not sure why I am nervous, but I am....must be the "exam". 

Anyways, so far this pregnancy has been pretty easy.  I have been nauseous for about 5 weeks, pretty much all day long....but noooo puking!!!  I am extremely exhausted and very moody :(  This week has been really good because my nausea is seeming to go away (fingers crossed).  I am just ready to be out of my first trimester so that I can breath a little easier and get over my fears and just enjoy being pregnant.

Dustin has been so amazing!!  He talks to Baby D all the time and kisses my belly each morning when we get up and every night before we go to bed.  He could sit there and just rub my belly for hours!

Well, not much more to update you on, so I will update you more after my doctors appointment.

Until next time...
Shawna

Monday, April 30, 2012

It's been almost 2 months....and a lot has changed!!

Wow...where do I begin.

Well the day after my last post (3-7-12) I started on my own with no medication!!!  So I called the doctor and he put me back on the triple dose of Clomid and said that this would be my last round of it.  He said that if we didn't conceive with this round, then he was referring me to a fertility doctor.  I was so devistated.  I had already been down that road and didn't want to go back down it again.  Dustin and i decided that if we didn't conceive this cycle, then we would just not "try" so hard.  We would let what happens happen.  So, we continued to chart my temperature and started taking the Clomid.

After what I beleived was my ovulation date, we noticed that my temperature just continued to rise....we were trying really hard not to get our hopes up, but it is really hard when you have tried for something so long and when the results are finally starting to look promising.  So anyways, we continued to chart my temperature and do our deed.  I was suppose to start again on 4-7-2012.  We decided that if I didn't start, that we would take a test on Sunday, Easter 4-8-12.

We went to my sisters for a little Easter celebration on 4-7-12 and then we went down to his Aunts for a little get together.  When we left, I wasn't feeling very good, but I knew that we needed to stop and buy a pack of pregnancy tests so that I could take one in the morning.  So we went to Walmart and he went in and got a few things that we needed and the pregnancy tests.  When we got home, it was around 1 AM on 4-8-12, and I had to pee reallty bad.  So I told him that I would go ahead and take a test because it would be positive now if I am pregnant and we don't have to wait until the morning.  So I took a test, and.......IT WAS POSITIVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

We were so shocked, excited, nervous and axious to tell everyone.  So we immediately, yes at 1:00 in the morning, started calling everyone in our family.  Everyone was so excited. 

So now to get you up to date on where we are.  I started taking my prenatal vitamins on 4-12-12.  And we had our first doctors appointment on 4-20-12.  They confirmed that I am pregnant and I am due on 12-12-12!!  All of my blood work came back fine, and I am now 7 weeks and 5 days!!!  We go in for our first ultrasound on 5-9-12 and our first actual appointment is 5-22-12. 

Other than being exhausted, my boobs hurting, the occasional nausea and mood swings, I am feeling really good!!  I think I am still in shock that I AM PREGNANT!!!!!!

Well, I will update more later....

Until next time...

Shawna

Tuesday, March 6, 2012

Major Update

Wow....where has the time gone?  I know that I have blogged in a while, but things have been really hectic.

Well, I am still charting my temp and it's going pretty good!  I am almost 100% positive that I ovulated this past cycle!!!!  Unfourtunately, we did not conceive (although we tried really hard!)  I stated spotting today, so I called the doctor to see if he wanted me to do Clomid again and I now have a doctors appointment at 3:30 today.  He is going to look over my BBT chart and decide from there.  I am pretty sure that he will keep me on the same dose of Clomid this cycle because, like I said, I am pretty sure that I ovulated!!

I cannot put into words how excited I am that I am starting on my own without medication!!  It has been almost a year since that has happened!!  One step at a time, I know.

Anyway, I will update more once my appointment is over.

Until next time...
Shawna

Tuesday, February 7, 2012

PERIOD!!!!

Well, I am glad to annouce that I started on Sunday!!!  So today is Cycle day 3....which means that I started taking the Clomid today!!!  I will take the Clomid 3 times a day for Cylce days 3-7 and then we will get busy...LOL  As Dustin says, morning, noon and night!

Since I started on Sunday, I also started charting by BBT beginning Sunday.  Here is run-down of how my temp has been thus far:

2-5   96.93
2-6   96.80
2-7   96.50



It is normal for my temp to be low and going lower, but in the next week, I should see it increasing.  Once it has increased 0.4 degrees, that is a sign of ovulation.  It should then continue to rise (fingers crossed)!!

Well that's it for now.  I will keep you all posted on my temps every couple of days.  And if anything changes I will blog.

Until next time....

Shawna

Monday, January 30, 2012

Research

Over the last several years, I have accumulated several (like 20) books about PCOS, pregnancy and so forth.  I have really started reading them and thinking about what is in them.  I have found some interesting facts about PCOS so I thought I would share a few of them.

*many woman with PCOS get pregnant and give birth to healthy babies once they get their hormone levels in balance; many times without fertility drugs (let's hope so!!!)

*over 70% of woman with PCOS conceive naturally  (hopefully)

*just because you aren't menstrating doesn't mean you can't get pregnant; ovulation occurs before your period starts (that's always good....since I rarely have periods unless the doctor puts me on Provera)

*ovulation predictor kits are generally not reliable for women with PCOS and irregular periods (I have used these a few times, but after reading this, I won't anymore)

*too much stress not only triggers PCOS symptoms, it can also make them worse (well if anyone knows me, they know that I have a ton of stress in my life.....I am trying my hardest to control all the stress though...not always easy)

*sleep deprivation results in hormonal imbalance, therefore increasing the risk of infertility (I have always had problems sleeping....maybe I need to go to the doctor about this)

*women who take a daily multivitamin can double their chances of getting pregnant and produce better quality eggs (I started taking a multivitamin a few months ago....so come on eggs do your thing)

*women whose mothers smoked during pregnant are less likely to conceive compared with those whose mothers didn't (well Pam smoked with me....thanks)

*body temp drops slightly before ovulation and increaes by about 0.4 degrees afterward (charting my temp every morning...waiting for that rise)

*Clomid does need to be adjusted according to body weight, with heavier patients needing higher levels (well doc just increased my dosage to 150MG per day.....YIKES)

*when taken with an insulin sensitizer (such as Glucophage), Clomid significantly increases the chances of ovulation and pregnancy  (I have been on Glucophage since September and the doc just increased my dose to 1500MG per day)

*estrogen supplementation with Clomid increases pregnant rates by encouraging growth of the lining of the womb and increasing the implantation rate (we haven't done estrogen supplementation yet)

*Metformin (Glucophage) is considered one of the most effective methods for treating infertility in women with PCOS, since it can bring insulin levels into balance (lets hope it works for me!!!)

*treatment with Glucophage has shown promising results in preliminary studies, including reinstated menstural periods and improved fertility  (well since I have been on it since September, I have only had 1 period on my own....so not sure if my body is still adjusting to it or what)

*many women who couldn't ovulate on other fertility medications achieve sucess using Glucophage because they decrease insulin resistance, which has a positive effect on ovarian function  (I think I have ovulated 1 cycle since being on the Glucophage....which without the Glucophage, I would only ovulate with the high price fertility meds)

*by using Glucophage in combination with Clomid or other fertility medication, over half of women with PCOS will ovulate (GOOD because I am using both!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

*low birth weight in a baby girl predisposes her to PCOS  (I think I was an average 7lbs something...so I don't think this had any effect on it for me)

*babies large for their gestational age are more common for women with PCOS  (great....so I am going to have big babies....oh well as long as they are healthy they can be 12 pounds...or maybe 9 pounds)

*some women with PCOS find that the 2nd time around, they get pregnant easier  (I hope so....unless we get both babies in one shot....hhhhmmmmm)


I have found a ton more, but some of them are about your sex life and some are about "men" issues....so I won't share those. 

I have been on the Provera (2 pills a day) since Friday....I have one more dose of that tonight and both doses tomorrow and then it's gone.  Once I take the last dose tomorrow....I should start Sunday!!  I have never not started with this medicine so I am not worried that I won't.  I have been on the 1500MG of Glucophage (Metformin) since Friday also.  I have one more dose of that tonight and I will continue that until doc tells me to stop.  I am starting to see the side effects of this medicine...the headaches...stomach cramps...bathroom issues....not to pleasant....but I will do anything that I have to.  I picked up my Clomid from the pharmacy last night, and I will start taking that on cycle day 3 (which should be next Wednesday) and I will take it through cycle day 7.  Then we will do our thing and hope to see a rise in my temperature.

I want to take a little bit of time and say a few words about my husband.  Dustin and I have been together for almost 14 years.  When we first started dating, we didn't talk much about kids (hello I was only 15).  But a few years into our relationship, we knew that we wanted to be parents.  So, after we were married, we didn't protect ourselves and thought if it happens it does and if it doesn't no biggie....we have plenty of time (we got married when I was 19).  Since we have been going thru our fertility issues, he has been the biggest supporter for me.  I only know how I feel about it and I have no idea how he feels.  And there for a while, I thought that he didn't really care if we got pregnant or not and I thought that he didn't really care what I was going thru.  The truth is, he was going thru his own emotions and feeling like a failure, and I thought it was all about me and thought that he was just being insensitive.  Looking back, I can see all the hurt that he has gone thru too...everytime our pregnancy tests came back negative, he was only being strong and not showing his emotions so that I wouldn't get more upset....I thought he just didn't care.  I have the most amazing husband in the world and I couldn't imagine going thru this journey with anybody else.  Dustin has been my rock thru so many things in the 14 years that we have been together and I love him so much more for that. 

When my sister passed away a little over 2 years ago...I just shut out everyone, including Dustin.  I didn't want to go on anymore...he stood by me and helped me thru it all and I thank GOD everyday that sent Dustin to me.  He could have easily just walked away....most men would have, but not Dustin.  He stood by me thru all my depression and quilt and never once did he make me feel like a burden.  I am so sure that I would have given up on so many things along with way if I didin't have Dustin by my side.  I just know that he is going to be such a wonderful dad, and I just pray that one day I will be able to give him that child to be the best dad for. 

Dustin--- I love you more that you could ever imagine.  You are honestly the best thing that has every happend to me.  I don't know where I would be without you.  I love you so much!

Okay....now that the tears are flowing, I am gonna stop....

Until next time....

Shawna

Friday, January 27, 2012

Doctor's appointment

So I haven't posted in a while...sorry.

I took a home pregnancy test on 1/20/2012 and it was negative.  So I scheduled an appointment with my doctor.  I went to my appointment yesterday, and he confirmed that I am not pregnant :(  He started me on Provera today to make my period come.  And he had me start taking 3 Glucophages today.  He had to look at my BBT chart to see what he wanted to do with my Clomid....and they just called me.  It appears that I did not ovulate last cycle :( so he is uping my does of Clomid also.  Now I take 3 (150MG) of Clomid a day too.  I won't start that until day 3 of my period. 

So far today I have taken 1 Provera (the second 1 I will take with dinner) and 2 Glucophages (1 with breakfast and 1 with lunch, I will take my 3rd one at dinner).  I am already starting to have some side effects.   I have been extremely nauseous today and I am already starting to have cramps.  The nausea is from the extra doses of Glucophage and the cramping is from the Provera.  In about 7-10 days, my body will be adjusted tot he increase in the Glucophage and my nausea should stop.  However, the cramping won't stop until my period comes and goes.

So now we are just waiting once again and hoping that everything will work out this time!!!

Until next time...

Shawna

Thursday, January 19, 2012

Think before you speak

So not too long ago, I was told by someone that everyone feels like they have to walk on egg shells around me when it comes to babies and pregnancy.  This person said that nobody knows what to say to be about all of it so they feel a little uncomfortable when the subject comes up.  I don't want anyone to feel like they can't talk to be about babies and pregnancy.  I am not going to say that I won't get upset or that I will be on cloud 9 along with you, but I will listen and join in the excitement.  I love babies and pregnancy, and not just for me.  I love seeing pregnant people (some) and I love all babies....just ask my family. 

However, some people just say things to me that are very inappropriate.  I feel like some people don't have any sympathy for what I am going thru, and they just run their mouth and they shouldn't.  I wish just for once, that those people who say inappropriate (mean) things to me would just walk a mile in my shoes one time and then see how much they want to say then.  I am nobody to say who should have children and when, but the people that I am talking about are not in any position to bring a child (or another one) into this world.  So instead of telling me how easy it is for them to get pregnant (not something you say to someone who has been trying for 7 years to get pregnant) they really need to be worried about how they are going to handle and afford the baby that they are going to be bringing into this world.

Dustin and I are not perfect, and I am sure that we are going to struggle just like everyone else that has children, but I believe that we could not be in a better place in our lives to have a baby join us.  We have so much love to give, and just want to be able to share that love with our child.   

I guess I am done ranting and raving for now....LOL

Until next time....

Shawna

Wednesday, January 18, 2012

Crampy

So I am starting to feel a little crampy.  I am not sure what to think about that.  It's not the same kind of crampy that I normally feel before I start.  So not sure if my period is starting to make its way to me or what.  Still just going to listen to my body and take a test on Friday morning if my period hasn't shown itself by then.

Well nothing else really to update you on, so....until next time....

Shawna

Tuesday, January 17, 2012

Still no period!

Well, I was suppose to start on Sunday, and here it is Tuesday and I still have not started!  I don't know whether to be excited or not.  It is not unusual for me to be late in starting, but I don't even feel like I am going to start.  I don't know if that is a good thing or a bad thing.  Dustin and I have decided that we will give it until Friday.  If I haven't started by Friday, we will take a pregnancy test and hope for the positive result that we have been wanting for soooo long.  Until then, we just have to keep our heads up and our fingers crossed.

Hoping for a....



Until next time....

Shawna

Friday, January 13, 2012

The 2WW is almost up!!

Well, I am suppose to start Sunday.  I have been a little crampy, but not too bad.  I am really hoping that Sunday will come and go with no period.  I don't really know how I am feeling.  I always get my hopes so high, and then I am crushed when I am not pregnant.  I told myself that I am not going to get my hopes that high anymore....but it is so hard not to.  I guess we will just have to wait and see what happens.

 


Until next time...

Shawna