So much has happened

Well, it has been almost a month since I blogged last.  Sorry about that!

So much has happened in the past month, some good, some bad.  I received notification that there was a 4 year old little girl named Raven, and her 7 month old brother named Skyler that needed to be adopted.  So, my husband and I started the adoption process, only to come upon some not so good information.  I am not going to go into all of that, because I would just like to put the whole experience behind me, move on and not dwell on what could have been.

Dustin and I have decided to go back to a fertility doctor to start fertility treatments again.  I have mixed emotions about it.  I want to do it because I want to have a baby so bad, but I am not looking forward to all of the testing, medicine and time away from work.  Not to metion the emotional roller coaster that fertility treatments puts you on.  It is a true test to your marriage and devotion to one another.  I am not going to lie, it does put a strain on our marriage, but it is only because of all of the ups and downs that go along with it.  When you are going through fertility treatments, you never know from one week to the next what to expect and it can take its toll on you.  You just have to remember that what you are working towards will be so worth everything that you have to go through.  You just have to remember to open up to your spouse about what you are feeling and what you are going through and talk through it.  You are not the only one going through this.

We have set our first appointment for March 7, 2011 at 10AM.  Like I said, I am having mixed emotions about it because I am nervous, but excited at the same time.  I am not going into this as blindly as we did when we first started doing the fertility treatments.  We kind-of know what to expect and that it is no guarantee to work.  We just have to keep our heads high and keep praying.  GOD will make it happen when he sees the time is right, and not any sooner.  We just have to trust in HIM and know that he knows what is best for us.

Until next time...
Shawna