Cramps

Well, I have started having prementrual cramps!!!  I have been taking the Provera for 5 days and have 5 more days left and then 5 days after that I should start....wow lots of 5's. 

So, today is the 1 year anniversary of my sister's death.  On November 23, 2009, life became too much for her to handle, and she took her own life.  She left behind 3 beautiful babies, Cameron, Chaise and Caeleigh and a world of family and friends that love her dearly.  She is missed every single day, but more today.  As I sit her writing, I can't help but think how my babies will never have the chance of knowing their Aunt Mandie and how wonderful she was.  They will never gett o share in the Christmas memories, sitting around the table at Thanksgiving, and just being around her.  She was such a wonderful person and she could make anyone smile.  So on this day, I try to think of all of the good memories that I have of her and try not to focus on the fact that she is gone.  I know that when I do have my babies, she will hold onto them tight and love them just as if she were here.  I will tell my babies about their Aunt Mandie and about how much she loves them even thou she is not here with us.  I love you Mandie Lee and I miss you so much!!

Until next time....

Shawna